Rarely has a guy actually gotten to know me just to know me. All most guys seem to be concern with sex, if they aren’t having sex with you then they do not care about you whatsoever… I’m sick of it. I want to be seen for the good qualities I possess. I want someone to date me because they want the whole relationship thing, and not just the physical part. 

I don’t care at what cost I gotta take to be skinny. I’m sick of being chunky. I want that bikini body and I want to be a size two! It’s going to happen, even if I’ll spend the majority of my time craving junk food or being hungry at night. No more candy, chocolate, sugar, or hardly any carbs for this girl now. 

The way you look at her, is the way you once looked at me so long ago. Back to the late nights and the I love you’s. You use to have that same smile when I was around. Honestly, it takes me back to those days and makes me miss them a little because I knew no matter what you would be there to lean on, but all that changed because feelings fade, people change, and most importantly we were so young and immature. I wonder what life would be like if today we were still friends or who knows possibly more. But honestly, I can’t bring myself to think of the what if’s because they didn’t happen and weren’t ment to. I can’t hate you for the things that happened in the past, but I also can’t say I regret the moments I spent with you because I did not. The person I am today is partially because of the impact you had on my life. Even though you never realized it, your patience with me at times is more than I ever deserved. Even though, we both have gone complete seperate ways, which is how it was suppose to work out (Yes, I’m stating I want him to be super happy with who he is with now), I will always defend you in some way because I know I wasn’t always easy on you and that just because things don’t work out with one person, doesn’t mean they are a bad person, just not the right person for you.