Can this possibly be real?
My biggest weakness is following too quickly for people who tend to deceive me or make my life harder. I have this insane attraction to bad boys who I believe I can fix, but for the first time I’ve left that behind. I think for once I have the good guy. At least I sure hope so. I don’t think anyone has ever treated me the way he does or cares as much as he does. In some ways I think in his eyes I’m perfect, but before I go on and on about my feelings towards my boyfriend, I’ll tell you what I’ve been dying to blog, just because I’ve never had that in my life before.
One day Anthony (my boyfriend) lost his card and needed to find it. He was distressed about it and it’s obvious it needed to be found. At that moment, as of most times I lose things, I recall the St. Anthony prayer, which my 8th grade social studies teacher was obsessed with every time we lost something. Since my belief in God is strengthening lately, I gave the suggestion of him saying the St. Anthony prayer. I then proceeded to send a bunch of links with different versions of the prayer, which he said. Later that day he found his card! However, I soon found myself in his situation, losing my ID card for my college and when I got all stressed and called him and he said “Say the prayer!”. I have literately never had a relationship where I could speak openly about God, much less share prayers… I literately geeked inside. For once, this is proof I have a relationship that is truly what I’m looking for.
Haven’t blogged in forever
College has tons of homework and I forgot my password. Maybe I’ll start blogging again more often!
I don’t belong here
I just want to go home. I’m alone and I just can’t make friends here. I miss home more than I could have imagine. This place is too much like high school and this is not what I signed up for. I want to pack my bags and never look back. I want to forget this place and its backwardness. I’ve never felt so alone :(